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  - Damn it, then, yes! - Digão celebrates. - Free mouth! I knew he had to be twisted for you! - He quips.

  - Do not mind them, Antonio! They are a bunch of jealous. But I well I liked the barbecue idea.

  - Yeah, baby ... do not know if you are included in the invitation. I'll think and notice you later, okay? Well, guys, I'll be going. Even a champion needs rest. - Play a few notes on the counter to get my share of drinks. Suzi collects with face of few friends, not looking directly at me.

  - Hey, calm there, "champs"! You do not want to give me a ride? - Diogo asks, his voice sounding a little choked.

  - Want I do not want, but I see I have no choice. I will take a leap in pharmacy nearby. Meet me there in fifteen minutes I take you home. - He agrees, and I take my hat off and direct it me to the pharmacy.

  Drinking was never a vice, but the short time to try a new drink or take something to relax the hardships of life. In the company of friends, of course. Never before I had gone wrong or lost consciousness, but right now, I was braiding her legs and feeling the drink want to do the way back. I needed urgent a remedy to relieve me of this anxiety and to help me with a hangover that I knew I had the next day. On second thought, I think I need to buy a whole cocktail.

  As soon as I arrive at my destination, the overly sweet scent of the blonde behind the counter reminds me that I've been with her before. Without clothes, of course. And I remember I had to wash my sheets and pillowcases for my three times to get rid of your sickening smell. My stomach even more wraps.

  - Oh, it's you! - She says, with a smile full of ulterior motives.

  - Yes it's me! - My mind can not process any other answer. I try to focus and do what I came here to do. But ... what I need to buy, right? - Beautiful, I PREXISO d-reméxios of here, O! - I say, trying to point to my stomach, but I can only point out the belly.

  That was my way of saying he was anxiously. Realizing that she did not understand what I said, I try to mend.

  - I drank a p-bit. But here, O ... - I point again to the belly. Why am I doing this drug? - Oh, I can not! - I think aloud.

  - Oh, now I understand. One minute, hunk! - She goes to a shelf, picks up a pack of medicines and hands me. - Can I help you with anything else? - She says, smoothing a lock of hair and sensualizando. I do not know if it's her perfume or is drunk, but that flirtation had not any effect on me.

  - My head hurts. - Claim. She smiles and search another pack of medicines.

  - Ready, Cat! If you need anything else ... anything ... call me. I'm always the orders!

  I thank you and go to the box, staggering. I take my wallet from his pocket and with much effort can pay. The old lady that is in the box gives me some coins, I have trouble aim in my pocket and derrubo the ground. Squat, expensively try to find them, but I give up and get up.

  My world stopped at that moment.

  She, beautiful as a goddess, to the pharmacy door and seems to be waiting for someone.

  Damn!

  I do not even think twice before going to her, to say a few good and demand my right.

  Wow, it looked like she was so close, but it takes forever for me to reach it.

  - Bitch, who you think you are to come back here after so long, with the biggest guy washed? You do not stop to think that is not welcome? Nobody wants to see you here. You died for this city and for everyone one day longer cared about you. What's more, you tell me where she is now. Where's my girl?

  I poured all my anger on her, but she did not answer, did not look at me, not moving. I was feeling very bad. Rediscover it was something I did not expect. The nervousness was getting dark all, and then it went out.

  - He is waking up. - I heard the angelic voice of my sister as a whisper. - Look, it's starting to open their eyes. Canoe, bring some water, please.

  - What is going on? Where is she?

  - Who she? - All ask.

  - The bitch Cicely, duh. You did not see? She appeared last night at the pharmacy - say, and Diogo begins to laugh. - Are you laughing at my face, you moron?

  - Dude, yesterday I found you passed out on the street in front of the pharmacy. The girl who works there said you passed out after arguing with a pole ... a pole, hear this. Hahaha!

  I feel a little confused. It all seemed so real. Did I drank so much, to the point of hallucinating? Diogo begins to laugh even louder and the canoe joins him. Damn it! What the fuck I do?

  - Are you sure about that? It was not even Cecilia? - Alana take my hand and, seriously, look into my eyes.

  - Man, forget this woman. She went away never to return. Keep following your life. Be happy, Toti! - She calls me the affectionate nickname he gave me when he was a baby. I feel embarrassed and somewhat vulnerable. This woman continues to take me off, even after so many years. Maybe now it's time for me to leave all memories and resentments behind and go in search of my happiness.

  - You this right, sis. As for the two of you - say, looking at my face more manly and intimidating for each of them - if they return to play the post of the matter, you pay me.

  Immediately the laughter to cease, but I'm sure that this issue is not yet closed. They will still take much fun this whole story.

  Chapter 3 - Cecilia

  I leave to go to the pharmacy for my chance my period came down and the absorbent was over. I cross the three blocks and catch sight pharmacy, cross the street and I to go when a man goes out nervous, walking to where I am.

  I look at him and I'm admiring your body, all tabby muscles in the right places, a beautiful face, a black hat on his head, the tight trousers marking the muscles of your legs. I feel my heart beating faster at the sight of this man and I have to take a deep breath.

  - Xua ... who Oxe penxa ... - he passes by and sees the post. - I'll be back axi ... ma-face bathing suit? Oxe not penxa? Ninguémmmm qué Oxe here. Oxe exa plexity and todoooo world ... - He opens his arms and continued yelling at the post. - Imported Oxe. Where, Where, Where? - Screams and, out of nowhere, falls unconscious on the street.

  I look at him and can not help a laugh, or he was crazy, drugged or was too drunk. What was the most likely.

  I enter the pharmacy and I'll get what I need. The cashier looks at me from head to toe and try to ignore it. I can not understand what is going on with these people of the city that is staring at me.

  When leaving the pharmacy, look at the post and I do not see the crazy lying on the ground, he was gone.

  I shrug and go back home.

  - Mari you will not believe. - I laugh to open the door and she leaves the kitchen. - A crazy in front of the pharmacy started screaming with a pole and passed out of nowhere. When I came out he was gone.

  - Credo. Do you have any upset in the city?

  - The worst is not it. He was too beautiful. The kind of man you would not mind to take to bed.

  - Despite the fact that crazy?

  - Exactly. - I laugh and go through it. - He was wearing a hat, so it must be a pawn. Or is it really crazy and think.

  - And I thought that only the capital that has crazy. - Mari sits on the couch and look at her.

  - I had a strange feeling when I looked at him.

  - It was fear girlfriend. - She laughs. - Do not worry you could deal with the college and those brave horses. A crazy pawn will not threaten you.

  - You're right. - I shake my head and go to my room. - Good night, Mari.

  Step by restless night, blurry images are running my dreams. The doctors said that it was my brain trying to remember something. The only problem was that it caused me terrible headaches the next day.

  I open my eyes and see that there are already five in the morning. I give up to rolling on the bed and I take a bath.

  While preparing breakfast, Mari appears with the crumpled face and stares at me.

  - You had those crazy dreams again?

  - He hit. - I sit in a chair and stare at my hot chocolate. - Had long had no such dreams, I do not understand what happened.

  - I th
ink it's the fresh air. - She shrugs and sits down to eat.

  - It may be - I speak insecure.

  After taking breakfast, Mari and I decided to visit the city and buy a few things missing. She slowly drive through the city and we memorizing where was located a bakery and other things we needed.

  To reach the market, I realize that some people look at me and whisper.

  - Do you know these people? - Mari question and ugly look at her.

  - I do not believe you asked me that.

  - Sorry friend. - She laughs. - It is that I sometimes forget that you do not remember anything of your life.

  We walked down the hall and look at the shelves, the worst thing to lose memory and does not remember the people, was not remember what I like to eat, I like music to hear if there is something that marked my life.

  Damn, I can not remember nor ever kissed or if I am a virgin.

  Several times I thought about going to a doctor and ask for an examination just to take this question.

  - Is it me or the whole market is looking for you?

  I look around and realize that looks at me still.

  - I'm dirty? My clothes are inside out? - I ask and she looks at me.

  -. It's all right.

  - Some problem? - I ask for a lady to the floor and stares at me.

  - You are beautiful, Cecilia. - She says and walks away.

  - Now it's strange - Mari says.

  I look at where the woman was, and I feel a pang in the head. She knew me, and I had no idea who she was. I hate moments like this. Set things in the cart and go to the nerve box.

  - Cecilia, good to see you. - A lady around eighties comes to the box and hugs me. 'You look beautiful, all grown up. The boy did not tell me he was back in town.

  - Boy? - I ask confused. - Sorry, but you know me?

  - I'm Ruth, dear. Do not you remember me? His grandmother came to visit me and you played in my backyard.

  - I'm sorry - talk and go through it, running to the car.

  I grab my head begins to throb and secure the horrible cry of pain who wants to escape from my throat.

  - Are you alright? - Mari question concerned and opens the car door for me.

  - She knows me, but I have no idea who she is. And who is this boy? - I ask.

  - Calm friend, do not force the head that will be worse. Let's go home.

  It puts the groceries into the car and returned home.

  car go down and take a deep breath, I try to control my breathing and panic attack that always accompanies me when I try to remember something.

  Mari takes some bags and go up to the apartment, I turn to pick up the other when I get a cold water bath.

  - What? - I look at my clothes and the blonde girl away. 'You're crazy girl?

  - And you're a bitch - she yells back and runs away.

  - Ceci, what happened? - Mari asks looking at me all wet.

  - That crazy threw water on me.

  - I think this city has only crazy.

  I look ugly to Mari, who stop laughing, and I'm going inside. Knock the door of my room and go to the bathroom to take a bath. Why I had to choose this city to start my life? Just had crazy here, strangers, people who claimed to know me and headache.

  After taking a cold shower to cool the head, I lay on my bed and try to relax. The pain was enormous and the medicine was not helping.

  - Ceci.

  - Not now, Mari - I complain when she is standing at my door.

  - Amiga, you have laid a half hour and continues moaning in pain. I'd better take you in the hospital.

  I open one eye and the light is unbearable. Get out of bed with great effort and it helps me to change clothes, since I'm only a sweater. Slowly down the stairs and she puts me in the car. Back his head in the window and I will close my eyes.

  - Do you know where there is a hospital?

  - I have no idea, but I'll ask someone.

  I feel the car moving, and after a while it opens and to the glass beside her.

  - Sorry, but you know tell me where is the hospital? - She screams and let out a groan. - Sorry friend.

  - Hi girl. - I hear someone's voice next to Mari.

  - Hi Do you know where there is a hospital.?

  - Follow that street until the end, will get the first right and then the third left. Will give almost facing him.

  - Thanks.

  - Thank you. - Move away from the window to respond and so he looks at me eyes widen.

  - Cecilia?

  - Do you know her? - Mari question and he does not take his eyes off me.

  - Of course I know. The idiot said he saw you and did not believe. - He chuckles. - How are you?

  - Sorry, kid, but I do not know you.

  - Are you crazy, is it? - He says and then looks at me with narrowed eyes. - Ah understood. He mixed up after he left town and no longer speaks with pedestrians, right. I never thought I'd see it one day.

  - Mari, - let out a groan when the head takes another stab - can not stand it.

  - Calm, Ceci. Sorry, cowboy, but I need to take my friend to the hospital.

  The car back to move and press the head in the window again, I do not answer my arms and then not remember anything else.

  *

  I open my eyes slowly and look for a very white ceiling.

  - Ceci? - Mari practically screams and grabs my arm. - Thank God, I was already worried.

  - What happened?

  - You passed out, he is knocked out two hours ago. - It makes a fondness in my hair and smiles. - How are you feeling?

  - The pain has passed.

  - That's nice. I explained everything to the doctor, and he said it would be nice to go to the nearby town later and do a scan to see if it's okay. He has given me the request of the examination.

  - We see this later. - Loose a sigh and try to sit. - When can I go home? I hate hospitals.

  - The doctor said so wake up, you're right, he freed you. I'm going after him.

  Nearly forty minutes later, finally I received a release to go home. I went up to my room to get some sleep while Mari was packing his things in the office the next day. When I woke up and looked at my watch, I realized that it was almost eight o'clock.

  I take a shower and go to the room where the meeting sitting Mari dining.

  - Has noodles in the pan, I just do.

  - Thanks. - I'm going to the kitchen, I make a plate for me and I go to sit with her. - Sorry not help you today.

  - Relax. You were very badly. - She looks at my face and smiled. - I hired a secretary, her name is Paula. Just got out of school and decided to work to earn money for college. The mother is unemployed and the situation is difficult. So I ended up hiring her mother called Dagmar to clean the office and apartment, and she offered to make lunch for us too.

  - You're amazing, you know. - I give a smile to her that shrugs. - Seriously, you have a wonderful heart.

  - Thanks - responds bland. - Oh, I almost forgot. A gentleman came by today and asked if we could go to his farm tomorrow. He works with dairy cattle and said a couple of years now milk production fell. He wanted us to give a look at what they have been eating.

  - If it has not changed the bull alpha it can be one of the reasons. Father crossing with the daughters.

  - I thought about it too. But I preferred to talk to him tomorrow on the farm.

  - What's his name?

  - Magno Barreto and the farm is Blue Sky.

  Chapter 4 - Ignatius

  After the conversation I had with Alana and "post accident", I spent hours and hours pondering my wandering. I thought it was time to finally opening to a woman who really like me and try to engage a relationship. After all, turns the beds of single city was not working for me. It was about time to forget my story with "that bitch".

  I thought of all my traffickers and realized that it fit more with my profile was Suzi. She was beautiful, sociable, was sweet to sell and still working at night in the most famous bar of the city center
. Besides, I knew she was crazy about me. I had never stopped to think about it. She met almost all qualities I admire in a woman. Sex was also good. Yes, it was really good. Of course I did not feel fireworks as with the ... Hey, why am I thinking this crazy? No, I can not think about it for a minute that is.

  This makes me even more determined to go to Suzi, apologize for the way I treated her the day before and ask her for the barbecue that will make the next weekend there in the "Blue Sky", the farm of my family.

  I take a bath long, wrap a towel on my hip and the other use to dry my hair while I look in the mirror. My body is a little stronger than in recent months, but did not do any physical activity, as well as part of my routine: taking care of the cows, tame horses and comb their hair, and harvest fruits and vegetables from our plantations to commercialize. Still, I am far from being fat. My chest is strong without being overly piebald. My butt is rounded and raised enough to make the girls wanting to squeeze it. My hip has the entries that make women go crazy, and even being a very good looking guy, she left me.

  Curse!

  I can not stop thinking about her and it makes me tormented. Seen me as fast as I can get my Jeep and go to the "Bar do Mineiro." Upon entering, I am welcomed by the sound of "Last Night," Carrie Underwood. The bar is starting to fill up, but I can still get to the counter without difficulty. Tina, one of the attendants, soon sees me and tells Suzi, which comes with a face a little less friendly than usual.

  - What will you want? - She goes straight to the point without me woo, or anything. It is the first time it happens.

  - Hi Babe! Today did not come to drink, just wanted to talk a little with you. - His feature relaxes a little.

  - Did something happen?

  - I wanted to apologize for the way I treated you yesterday, and invite to the barbecue that will make next weekend. - She smiles and starts to pet a lock of hair.

  - Are you sure you want me to go?

  - I have, baby! I'll get you in your house, so I let the ready preparations. I send you a message when I leave the house, okay?

  - OK then! - She smiles and goes back to work. I walk toward my car, but when I open the door and I am about to enter, I feel a hand on my arm, pulling me back.